Meet my friends, Family Force 5.

So. Frustrating.

I am just going to be blunt here.


YOU broke up with ME.
I just think you are so ridiculous sometimes. 
You made the choice. 
Therefore, do not complain.
Cause I am still here when you decide you want to come back. 
I told you that.


Thanks.

This one made me think...

Interesting...

Edward Cullen is not a vampire.
he lives in the woods,
he doesn't kill humans, 
& he glitters when he's in the sun...
the dude is obviously a fairy.

Frustration

I have not been this frustrated in my entire life.

Heartbreak

This happens too frequently.


The thing is...God has bigger plans. 


Who am I to get in the way of them?


Joshua 3:5

self-explanitory.

our first picture together.

Recruiting...the College Kind

So I have completed my first "PR" weekend. 


Let's just say, I have mixed reviews. There was a lot of drama involved, but when you take out the petty, stupid and unnecessary drama...it was great. I really enjoyed being out at a Christian music festival recruiting for my school.


I saw a lot of freaking awesome music groups. Skillet (for the first time ever. they melted off my face.), Family Force 5 (awesome as usual.), the new Newsboys (feat. Michael Tate as the lead singer), and many others. It was sooooo fun!


I leave tomorrow night for Gaylord, Michigan. I'll be at Big Ticket Festival. Interested in who will be there? http://www.bigticketfestival.com/


Well, until then...
Peace & Blessins',
College Girl

Yeshua

"Savior"


There are so many names for God in the Bible. Reading through them, I am overwhelmed. Then again, I am overwhelmed by God in the first place. 


Why would he make flies? That's something I was wondering as I ate my dinner at an outdoor reception at a beach wedding today. The answer? Cause he's God.


Why would he make a different laugh for everyone on the planet? Cause he's God and he can.


Why make so many different types of trees and plants and animals when in general, they are the same! CAUSE HE IS GOD. He is God and I am amazed by him. 


I just started reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan. I'm not even 5 pages in and my mind has already been blown. If you don't have this book, get it. NOW. Luckily, I have a really great boyfriend that let me borrow his copy. All I can say now is that I am amazed by a God who made so many different things because he wanted to, because he can. All I want to do is make him smile.


That's literally all I can think of to say right now. My brain is going a million different directions and it's late. Well, early.


Peace & Blessins',
College Girl

Advice

Here's the thing. I'm no Doctor Phil. But when someone needs me, I listen.


So. When my friend needed me, and I'm telling you...he needed me...I listened, and I listen close. I can relate to having fights with the people in my family. I'm not talking light arguments about bathroom time. I'm talking some nasty fights. Fights that I regret. When my friend...we'll call him Vern...facebooked me needing me to lend an ear...I could NOT say no.


Vern went to Trevecca with me for a semester and a couple weeks. He became one of my really close friends. I did one of his favorite impressions. He moved to another Nazarene University a couple weeks into second semester, and that made it difficult to be able to bond. Doesn't mean I'm not there for him. SO. The other night Vern facebooked me. He had gotten in a HUGE and nasty fight with his mom a day or so before and things were not looking so great. He'd said some unnecessary things to his mom, she left upset, his dad went after her. His dad came home crying, his mom returned and didn't eat for a couple days, and Vern didn't sleep for a couple days. By the time he came to me for advice, he had gone I think, oh, 3 days without sleeping. We began to talk. Every bit of advice I gave him would be returned with an excuse for why it wouldn't work or why it hadn't worked because he had tried it already. I got VERY frustrated. I just wanted to grab his shoulders (by now we were on skype. I was talking, he was typing) and shake him and yell in his face. Why ask someone for advice when you aren't going to take it?


Then I realized. He never really came out and asked me for my advice. All he said was that he needed me. Vern just needed an ear. That ear belonged to me. 


After a little while, we were on the subject of God. Of course he believes in him. That wasn't the point. He wanted me to help him answer a question that he has been wanting an answer for since he took theology last semester. "Is God responsible for all the good on Earth...?" Wow. How do I answer that? I am no theologian. I am no reverend, no minister, no one qualified (well, who really is qualified when it comes to knowing things about GOD?) enough to answer something like that. All I could tell him was to get the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan. I'm not even through the first chapter and I'm in awe of a God that I've been learning about since birth. (I'll leave that to another blog) I told Vern to read this book and to think about our God and let HIM handle things. That's the only way he was going to get through his trials. I told him not to worry about the bad things that were happening. I told him not to focus on things that were out of control. I told him to stop thinking and start worshiping the God that was capable of handling everything for him. That's all I could tell him.


I talked to Vern yesterday. You want to know what his reply was when I asked him how things were going?


"They are a lot better."


Peace & Blessins', 
College Girl

Busy

Wow. Life. Busy.


I was told to update my blog, so here I am! Ever since school ended, I haven't necessarily been BUSY, but I haven't been just sitting around. I've been home, I've been back, I've been laying by the pool, and I've gotten a SWEET job. Never fear, I'm still an Abba Java employee, but we all don't work there during the summer. 


So, about this new job. I'm working with TNU. Sound fun? Well, it should be! I'll be traveling with 3 other people (different each time) to different music festivals in the US. First (from June 16-20) I'll be at Atlantafest in Atlanta, GA. We'll set up a booth and tell thousands of kids about Trevecca. It should be really awesome! From June 24-27, I'll be in MICHIGAN at Big Ticket Festival. Then, June 28-July 3 I'll be in Bushnell, IL for Cornerstone Festival. WOW. That's a lot of stuff going on in a close period of time. I am going to a couple others, but those aren't until August and September. 


Sure, I'll be making a lot of money doing this, but it's going to be SO FUN and SO WORTH the sweat and exhaustion! 


Anyway, that's the main thing going on in my life. I'm nervous about it. We'll be traveling in a tour bus, really getting to know each other REAL well. YAYYY. 


I'm so excited for this opportunity. It's a big deal. (I mean, the least amount of people at these festivals will be 15,000 people!) That's a whole lot! Just keep me in your prayers as I go out to recruit people to Trevecca, a place where everyone should be! :)


Peace & Blessin's,
College Girl


P.S. I have the best, most understanding, most caring boyfriend in the world and I like him a whole lot. :)

Blessings

Daniel Wesley Moranville.


That's all I have to say when I think "blessing". It's nice being able to say his name on here now! Of course, everyone knew I was talking about him anyway...still. Waiting 4 months for someone is usually useless. In this case, it was WELL worth the wait. I have never been happier. I don't have words for how I feel. He makes me the happiest girl in the world. Not only is he really, really cute. He has the biggest heart for others that I have ever seen. That is so refreshing! 


I'm speechless.


"Are we an item, girl quit playing." :)


Peace & Blessins,
College Girl

Change

It's hard to believe that all this patience might pay off soon.
That's all I am going to say.




On a different note, I just got back from spending a weekend in Orlando, Florida with the TNU Gospel Choir. We went to Orlando to minister to Haitian people at their churches. I have never experienced anything like that. They worship like I've never seen before! It was such an overwhelming experience to have sang "It Is Well" in their native language. I got tears in my eyes! It was SO INCREDIBLY POWERFUL. God moves in the craziest of ways. I started off the weekend not excited at all, and by the end I was so thankful for the opportunity. I'm making a change. When I worship, I'm really going to worship. My God deserves that from me.




"WORSHIP is: Our response both personal and corporate to GOD- for who HE is! and for what HE has done! Expressed in and by the things we say and the way we live." -Louie Giglio


Peace & Blessins,
College Girl

Baby I'm a Fool

"Baby I should hold on just a moment and be sure it’s not for vanity,
Look me in the eye and tell me love is never based upon insanity,
Hear the way my heart is beating every other moments fleeting,
Kiss me now,
Don’t ask me how."


Baby I'm a Fool.
Melody Gardot

This Situation.

Now, c'mon bud, this is just getting ridiculous.




WHY DON'T YOU REALIZE THAT YOU MAKE MY HEART STOP?
WHY DON'T YOU REALIZE THAT MAYBE WE CAN GROW UP TOGETHER?
WHY DON'T YOU REALIZE THAT YOU CAN STOP PLAYING THESE GAMES NOW?


WHY DON'T YOU REALIZE THAT I AM ABSOLUTELY, POSITIVELY, WITHOUT A DOUBT CRAZY ABOUT YOU?


it's just not fair.


You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes,


I can't pretend although I try to hide


I like you, I like you.




-"You Got Me" by Colbie Caillat




Peace & Blessins,
College Girl

Truth.

"don't let someone be a priority in your life when u are still an option in their life."

Words of Wisdom.

smart thoughts. couldn't have said it better myself. thanks, weezy.

Frankly...

This pretty much sums it up.

Until Now

Is it wrong to want to shout in someone's face and beg them to just tell you their feelings?


That's what I want to do pretty much everyday right now. I hate the feeling of being crazy about someone and not being able to do anything about it cause you don't want to ruin what you already have going. It makes my head hurt just thinking about it. Part of me knows that I have some growing up to do. The other part of me wonders why I'm not good enough how I am right now. Why can't we be together WHILE I grow up? 


The thing is, while it might hurt and drive me crazy every single second of the day...he's worth waiting for. I've never met anyone who can make me think about things I've tried to ignore. I've never met someone who makes me want to listen to slow songs even though they used to just make me depressed. I've never met someone who makes me want to do something right with my life, no matter how scary it might be. Until now.


I wish that it was as easy now as it was when we were in elementary school. Writing a note saying, "Check yes or no." Why is it not that easy? Why do we make things SO, SO complicated? Everything is complicated and it's not fair. 


Maybe that's why I need to grow up. Because things aren't simple as a grown up. Things change. On the other hand, maybe that is the part of me that is right. How will I ever know?


In closing, here are the words to a song that really make me think of someone. Well, certain parts of the song do more than others. Enjoy.


"Vanilla Twilight"
Owl City


The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here
 I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
 The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
 I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone
 I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone
 As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
 When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
 And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here


Vanilla Twilight


Peace & Blessins,
College Girl

Money, Money, Money...

I hate it. It brings too much stress on me.


Now, if I had the amount of money I have and things costed less, that would be just fine with me. I just hate needing things and not feeling financially stable to buy those things. I also hate just wanting to go out for Sweet CeCe's and not having the money cause I want to be able to afford shampoo. C'MON NOW.


Luckily, I have the best job in the world. Now...to get paid...


I have nothing more to say. My blogs are REAL boring. Something interesting needs to happen.


Peace & Blessins,
College Girl


“If you want to feel rich, just count the things you have that money can't buy”

Creepers Extraordinaire

Why is it that no matter how many hints you drop to someone, they don't seem to get them?


I CLEARLY DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU IF I KEEP TALKING ABOUT HOW I AM BUSY OR GOING TO BED. I apologize for the caps, but it is overly frustrating! I try to do my best talking to good, normal people, but the creeps keep a comin'! My thing is, why are there even creeps in the world? I don't understand it. Why can't everyone be normal? Then again, what is normal? I could be the weirdest one out here. I just don't get it. 


My posts are so pointless.


Peace & Blessins,
College Girl


“Normal is not something to aspire to, it's something to get away from.” -Jodie Foster

Free to Be Me

I don't usually sing in front of a lot of people, but I'll have to get used to it now!


I'm auditioning for a public relations group. There are 2 here at TNU. Everpraise and Refuge. Everpraise is a small group that sings and Refuge is a band. I want to be in either one! I'm singing Free to Be Me by Francesca Battistelli for my audition, and I cannot wait. The song means a lot to me right now. It really has so much to do with my life, so it makes is easier to sing because I mean it. I CAN'T WAIT.




Peace & Blessins,
College girl.


"Don't just talk about it. Be about it."

Changes

Going to college is big time. Choosing what I'm going to do with the rest of my life is even bigger.


For my whole life, I've always wanted to do something....important. In the past year or so, I've changed what I wanted to do a lot. I started out wanting to be an athletic trainer for an NFL football team or an NHL hockey team. Then, I found out the highest I can go is college cause I'm a girl. Not cool. That wasn't going to stop me, though. Then I realized how bad I am at science. Obviously, you have to be good at science to be a trainer. Then, I thought about changing my major to Mass Comm. I wouldn't mind being a broadcaster and interviewing people on the red carpet, or being a sportscaster on ESPN. 


Then, I got a job that has a cause. Also, my friend Dan opened my eyes. Missions. Because of Abba Java, I am considering doing something with missions. That doesn't mean that I am going to a foreign country to help people. There are people right here in Nashville that need my help. This is just a thought. I'm looking for a calling. The skies aren't going to open and tell me what to do,  I know that. But in the meantime, I'm going to be praying. A LOT.


Peace & Blessings,
College Girl


"I have but one candle of life to burn, and I would rather burn it out in a land filled with darkness than in a land flooded with light" — John Keith Falconer

Coffee With a Cause

So tonight marks the opening of Abba Java...for real. 


I cannot WAIT. I just feel like something good is about to happen. There are so many people already planning on coming. It should be great.


I get to work from 3:30-11:30. Awesome.
I also made the chalkboard design to announce the Grand Opening. Here it is:

I'm pretty proud of it, and my boss LOVES it!! :)

It's all free hand. 

Well, I guess that's it for today. I don't have much to talk about, except for the fact that I lost my wallet. I am freaking out.

Peace & Blessings,

College Girl

Abba Java

Is it weird to be excited about a job?


Well, if so, I'm a total freak. I recently got hired at a new little coffee shop on my college campus called Abba Java. It's a quaint little place next to my dorm and it is coffee with a cause. It's not just any coffee shop and there's a good reason for that. They sponsor 67 children in Zambia, Africa. I have never had a job where the manager was soooo crazy about customer service and the way that we treat the people that we come in contact with and the coffee we serve them.


I love it.
Oh, and I'm a shift manager. What an honor. Seriously.


Love,
College Girl

"Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world." James 1:27

Good Monday?

Today is a good day.


I only had 2 classes. Biology and CPR/First Aid. Both let out early. Score.
My brand new Macbook came in the mail. It was free. It's the most amazing piece of technology ever. Score.
I get to train for a new job. It's at a coffee shop. Score.


All in all, this is a WONDERFUL Monday. :)


Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference.  ~Winston Churchill

Spring Break

Usually, as a "college kid", one embarks on a journey to a tropical destination with a group of friends to get burnt to a crisp and meet a bunch of random fellas. Me? I go home.

Now, don't get me wrong, I LOVE home, and this break is much needed. Unfortunately, it's not warm enough here to tan...therefore I will go back as pasty white as I was when I left. Also, I won't have any fun memories made over the week to look back on with my friends at our 25 year reunion. I won't have any fun inside jokes. The thing is, I'd much rather go back with the memories I made with my family and the catching up that I got to do with my family. I get to sit around and listen to my 5 year old brother sing Phantom of the Opera to himself. I get to listen to my 11 year old sister whine about her bus driver. I get to take my 15 year old sister dress shopping for her first high school dance. I think it's a pretty good trade.

I don't think I realized how much I loved my family until I lived 6 hours from them.

Enough random babbling for today...maybe I won't take so long to blog again next time.
Until then.

Call it a clan, call it a network, call it a tribe, call it a family. Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one. ~Jane Howard

Straight Exhaustion

I have a class at 9 a.m. on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.

This morning, I woke up, look at my clock, and it was 9:00 on the dot. What does that mean? I didn't go to class. I went back to sleep. Guess what time I woke up. 12:30. I was straight EXHAUSTED. I haven't slept much lately. I did today.

I know that you guys don't care about my sleep patterns, but I wanted to talk about them anyway.

Wait, who am I even talking to? I don't have followers. fml.

Until later.

No day is so bad it can't be fixed with a nap.  ~Carrie Snow

Men...or shall I say boys.

Boys. I don't understand them. And it's frustrating.

That is all.

"No man is worth your tears, but once you find one that is, he won't make you cry."

"God made woman beautiful and foolish; beautiful, that man might love her; and foolish, that she might love him."

Moore Maniac-ness

Basketball games frustrate me.

I mean, c'mon people. 

Maybe it's cheerleading. I don't know if I'm completely cut out for this junk. I don't think I have the patience. I don't think I have the stamina. I don't think I have the dramatic qualities...scratch that. I have the dramatic qualities, I just don't really want to be dramatic anymore. Unless it has to do with getting, like, a battle scar or something. That's beside the point.

I think, as cheerleaders, we need to forget our selfish selves and remember that we are there to cheer on our team. Maybe, if for a second we do realize why we're there, we will gain some respect for doing something really cool FOR THE TEAM. Until then, we can continue to be the laughing stock of Trevecca. That's fine with me. 

Enough venting, though. I love my girls, and fellas. I just think we have some self-evaluating to do.

"Charity, good behavior, amiable speech, unselfishness — these by the chief sage have been declared the elements of popularity."
-Burmese Proverb

The Beginning

So, I talk a lot.

I think, to spare my friends, blogging might be a beneficial way for me to talk about what's going on in this noggin of mine.

It's not the beginning of college for me anymore. I'm partially through my second semester of my freshman year. Still. I'm getting used to this whole thing, and I want people to share it with me. I am a freshman at Trevecca Nazarene University in good old Music City, USA. Nashville's a great town. Full of opportunities that I am still finding. I love it here, and couldn't see myself anywhere else.

I'm quite the dreamer. I constantly daydream about things I want to do and how my life might turn out if certain things happen. Of course, what 19 year old girl doesn't? I'm still growing. I'm still learning. I'm still changing. Things are nuts, but that's how I like em.

But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. "Do not fear what they fear ; do not be frightened." Take Courage.
1 Peter 3:14